Light It Up, My Life

“Time files....”

Tuesday, May 8, 2012 || 12:37 AM

I kinda stress now
I know I wan my life how to be
But I cant control everything or make sure it work in plan
I just wan my life to be simple...I dont wan what big success
After 1 years study, I know, I really know what is the reason I fail my year 1
Is my mistake, choose the wrong way...
Everytime I back home, I just hope I can relax and get more rest
But mum keep pushing me...I know she worry about my future
I explain to them, how I feel, but I dont think they can accept the idea that I told them
Seriously I not really hope to study anymore...I have try , I wish I can continue study
All of you wish too, I know
....
I can't make sure the decision I make is 100% right
but at least give me the chance I try,can？

Lifeless.

I wish to sleep and not wake anymore.

I have no space to explore my feeling out.

All the stress make me wish to hide far far away from all of you.

God, help me up can?

All about you , Belle Ju Fone a.k.a FONEY

Wednesday, March 14, 2012 || 10:32 PM

My jimui Fone was pass away

End of her day at 11 of march 2012.

The first message i receive from my another jimui yenyen, she say that ' fone died '

Tat time I was just awake and I look at the calendar, today not April fool what..why she say so?

I really really hopes that she was just joking with me when I calling her.

After saw her profile I only knows, tat is not joke, is true =(

My mind was empty, I close my eyes hope that it was just a dream, is not true at all !

I cant accept the true, I cant accept she was gone like this way without any signal ...

The last meet was just too long, our gathering, our dating you promise us will be attend

You FFK us fone ='((...

I'm regret that I cant make it when the last time you date me out and say want to fetch me up to yamcha.

I miss the last chance to meet you up ..

You're a girl who always cheer ppl up, always smiling, always make fun and joke around

We knows each other since form 4, due of your friendly attitude we get to know each other in a short time

Slowly we sit together, out together, you also introduce some of your closed friend to me

In the last 2 year of my secondary school, every moment we also share our feeling, family problem, love problem, and also you promise us, you will hired us to work with you, but you FFK us against =c

Still remember that?

In this 2 year time, I have lot of fun with you, yenyen and huisan, 4 of us always curi makan behind the classroom, talking bad behind people, sometimes even our boy friend we also will talk about it

Although we choose different college, but our friendship never end right?

We are jimui forever, I will miss you much and much and much

Just come in to my dreams, Fone, I miss you badly ='((

Tuesday, February 14, 2012 || 8:15 PM

Is Valentine today, the night before today
I do plan what we gonna do to makes the day sweet and happy
But at last I just feel upsad, it is just a normal dating
The respond I get from you, I feel like I'm just over excited, tml will be just a normal tuesday ?
Early in the morning I just hopes to get a photo with you but u....
I do angry
But you dun even whiling to coax me back ... is there any other meaning in between?
The weird things is.....when you say.. 'you still want to get angry?' How can u say this to ur gf when she's angry ='（（
My mood really fall to the floor tat time ....
And the present, actually I care so much ...
I tot....you will knows what I likes
I just feel that present ur lover things not should let her choose herself but is present her the things you thinks she love it.....it shows ur sincerity and how much do you knows about her.
Is my feeling, I'm not scolding but feel a little bit disappointed .

Friday, January 27, 2012 || 11:59 PM

在家就快震得发霉了
不能去别人家 gamble ='(
除了睡和吃，真的没什么作为了
他的生日也没办法跟他庆祝
真的不好意思..
这个年头的开始不怎么好
我的假期因为婆婆生病了，没办法好好去玩
现在新年也不能庆祝
你说，这怎么是个好年呢?
昨晚跟姐姐聊小时候的事
那时候想要的东西，很容易就能得到
现在人长大了，想要的东西越来越多，也越来越难得到
烦恼的东西就越多
好怀念小时候..

聊天的时候

如果不能聊了

应该说一声

别不告而别

Wednesday, January 25, 2012 || 12:38 AM

My first post in this dragon year
Well, I started my year with a very very bad situation
The most sad case was
My dearest grandmother was pass away
God bless her goes to heaven and RIP.
She has suffer for so long, please treat her well in heaven, God.
Felt so sorry that dint treat her well while she still beside me
Heart was pain where she looks so suffer for her leg pain

I cant do anything to helps her
And why dont just let her goes for Chinese New Year
='(
What a bad begining in a new year, dont think that this year is a good year x.x
No mood to celebrate cny, so my dear friend, cant go to visit house and same time cant invite you guys to my house, I'm so sorry.

But still, HCNY .

Friday, December 9, 2011 || 12:10 AM

Final is coming...not bad for my time-table..
at least got time let me hug leg buddha . xp
I REALLY FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU
i hope you can besides me every single time
but...u will get tired if u everyday fetch me back home...
and ...my parents.'
I can understand why they dun let me pak tuo ....
but he treat me as good as you do
he loves me as you do
he care me as you do
I bear I wont give up to my studies
I hopes you understand...
I likes him much
Due to your not open-minded
I feel tired.....
haizz
Mum , Dad ... can you understand me ?

Wednesday, November 16, 2011 || 12:06 AM

Busy. Busy & Busy

Rushing assignment and mid-term..
Actually become more lazy this semester...
Everything seems never ends....
I lazy to think and do
Due of my poor english ....
many word need to translate in google ....
Stress yea....
=c

something changed

ppl changed

feeling changed

everything is changed

even you and i changed.